Since our yard sale I have not blogged. Shame on me. But wow, I don't even know where to start. During the yard sale time we were also in the process of buying our first home. We were already approved, made an offer on a house and paid the down payment. 2 days before closing we had a slight problem and the closing date was pushed back a few days. Only to get to that day and it be pushed back again. It has been heart breaking to say the least. We have been so discouraged, and confused.
I am a very transparent person, and not afraid to be myself and share my faults. Most anyone that knows us, know that Tim and I got started off on the wrong foot, what can I say, we were true newly-weds.... at age 20 we decided our marriage... and being together and having fun... was WAY more important that doing the grown up stuff... ya know.... going to work, paying bills ect.... we dug ourself a hole from the beginning..... but BOY did we have fun ;) LOL After that it kinda snow balled. And honestly, we had no idea how to get ourselves out of it so we ignored it for years... and that was NOT fun! :( Well, we began working on it about 4-5 years ago... but 2 years ago WE GOT SERIOUS! I can honestly say that it has only been with God's help that we have even gotten to this point. He has dramatically changed our finances and how we handle them.
That is why this has all been so hard, we feel like we have worked so hard, and then because of the mistakes of someone else, we are now left without a home. We still are not exactly sure what the outcome is. We wait. We had already turned our notice in on this house so we have to be out of here by Wednesday. We do have somewhere to go, but it is heartbreaking that we aren't moving from here to our own home.
At this point we don't really know what to think. Was that not the right house for us? Does He have something better? Is it not the right timing? Is He preparing us for the wait of the adoption? I don't know any of those answers.... but I trust that God has this under control and that there must be a reason for this all. He does hold my life in His hands and He absolutely knows whats best for me.
I have the most amazing husband in the world, 3 fun, fantastic kids with such great big hearts, and 2 children coming as a gift from God all the way from Africa. My walk with God is the most important thing in my life.... after that, my life is my family. No house will EVER mean more to me than them. No THING will ever compare to them. Sometimes God sends situations like this to remind us of how truly blessed we are!
What an awesome God we serve!